Monday, February 28, 2005

1. Name : Freesia
2. Piercing : one pair on the ears.
3. Tattoos : nah nah.
4. Height : erm.. 158? ah short!
5. Shoe size : uk 4 1/2?
6. Hair color : a little red, purple and brown. haha.. my black dye run la.
- LAST -
7. wat u doing? : just bathed.
8. song u listened to : the reason.
9. cd u bought : Everclear for eileen.
10. person u called : sheryl sim.
- DO -
11. u have a crush on someone : *winks*
12. u wish u could live somewhere else : a bunglow?
13. u think abt suicide : i guess so. haha.. im not deranged or something.
14. u believe in online dating : nah.
15. others find u attractive : i havent heard anything from others. guess not.
16. u want more piercings : er.. not really.
17. u like cleaning : i dun like doing houseworks.
18. u write in cursive or print : print.
- HAVE YOU -
19. ever cried over a girl : my sis.
20. ever cried over a boy : no.
21. ever lied to someone : duh!
22. ever been in a fist fight : when i was young with my sis. but sadly i always lost.
- WHAT -
23. shampoo do u use: dove.
24. are u scared of : loneliness and boredom.
25. number of times i have been in love : never.
26. number of times i have had my heart broken : by whom?
27. number of times my name appear in the newspaper : im not popular at all.
28. number of scars i have on my hand : i dun go n count it.
29. number of things in my past that i regret : plenty.
- FAVOURITE -
29. 5 letter word : freak! common language in me.
30. cereal : honey stars.
31. chewing gum : er.. i dun know what brand.
33. day(s) of week : friday night and saturday.
34. least fave day : sunday night and monday.
35. flower(s) : my flower!! it really nice smelling u know.
36. special skills : fly? teleport?
- HAVE YOU EVER -
38. gone out in public in ur pyjamas : maybe when i was young?
39. cried during a movie : *nods*
40. been to new york : i wish!!
41. china : yeah.. just a small part.
42. california : bring me there. bring me there.
43. europe : yeah yeah!! lovely!
44. hong kong : yes!
45. japan : never. i will go there someday. heh!
- RANDOM -
46. wad time is it now :10:01pm
47. apples or bananas : apple
48. Blue or Red : er... dunno leh.
49. wad are u gonna do after this : watch tv. oscars.
50. wad was e last thing u ate : sushi! yay.
51. wat do u do when u're bored : watch tv. sleep.
52. last noise u heard : a lot of noise!
53. last time u went out of state/province: last month.
- FRIENDSHIP & LOVE -
54. do u want kids one day and if so, how many : 2? hopefully they will be as close as my sis and i. there will be so good!
- OTHER INFO -
56. thing u dislike abt urself the most : er.. im insecurity.
57. worst feeling in the world: no one loves me.. haha.. ya right. my family loves me! erm.. knowing that someone hates u?
58. who u love : my friends and my family.
59. who u miss : my sis and ex-mates.
60. who u like : u!

@ 9:36 PM

Friday, February 25, 2005

we were discussing today how we will react on mon..

hyperventilating
silent looms
shivering
constant shaking

hmm... thats seems bad enough. anyway, i crashed ac today, just for janice bio lecture though. not much oppotunity for us to attend lectures. we had some serious thought on what we are going to do after the results r released. im really confused right now. i dun know if i should remained where i am or go to a new environment. im dun exactly hate my sch right now but at the same time im not having a splendid time there as well. how i wish i can remain in pl forever. my sec sch mates r my only consolation right now. jc life is so mudane... i miss those times where i can express my thoughts freely without offending any sensitive, much too prim and proper ppls out there. i feel confined, knowing that some ppl cant accept my "so called inmoral ethics". *shrugs* thats how i am. no one is exactly perfect and angelic.

back to the topic. after ting's and pearlly's lesson. we headed town to meet sheryl. again we had much laugh. being with them are the only days when my laughters r real. *winks*

@ 8:57 PM

Monday, February 21, 2005

oh my goss.. i hate making decision!! im feeling fustrated and im right now hyper ventilating for no right reason. maybe it is that results will b released soon, and some other problems. feeling empty.. im all alone at home which makes matter worst. right now, i wish there is someone there for me.

@ 8:43 PM

Friday, February 18, 2005

waaa... my sis has gone to ausi already. im feeling so lonely now!! sigh.. she will be away for 9 months. my life will become super pathetic!

@ 4:28 PM

Saturday, February 12, 2005

im feeling empty and lost. hmm.. seems like im missing somethings but the question is i dunno what. i just have this sick feeling in my heart. whoo.. i have been slacking really hard for this cny week, havent been doing anything constructive. tests will be coming right up. im still thinking whether i should at least try studying for it. although i know that no matter how hard i try, i will still fail my bio. bio is really a sickening subject to take in 'A' levels. it comprises of bombastic words, never ending explanations, diagrams that no one can comprehend and phrases that after reading a thousands times, u still would not get it. that's how bad it is. anyway im still struggling to comprehend my notes. hah!

@ 11:03 PM

Friday, February 11, 2005

im seriously putting on a lot of weight.. u dont have to tell me, i can feel it for myself. haha!! actually, it seems that im hungry all the time. i think im really getting fat. sheesh.. this is really scary. im putting on weight at the wrong places...

cny is really boring this year. my red packet is also pathetic.

i need a new life

@ 10:38 PM

Saturday, February 05, 2005

goss.. i feel so drain!! im like tired everyday. sch have been quite mudane nad really boring to me. it is kinda dreadful too. i wish that im still in pl where i have all my precious friends with me. that is the time where i enjoyed myself the most. they never fail to keep me happy even in my most miserable moments. separating from them really makes me understand the importance of their presence and their absence makes me appreciated them even more. i really miss the laughter and vibrance around me. i just really wish to tell u guys, i will never forget the happy memories u all give me! those precious and wonderful days with u all really makes my day alive!! now i really knows what true friends are!! it is those friends whom u can never forget. I LOVE YOU GUYS!! i really miissss u all!!

just celebrated my sis 21st birthday yesterday. haha.. she is getting old already. luckily her party was successful. we had been fussing on the preparations for a long time already. this has really makes me realise how time passed. in about a week or more, my sis will be flying to ausi for a 3 years course. sigh.. my days now will b even more miserable!! :(( i starting to miss her already. there is no one that i can have with already. arghh.. seems like my life is stating to get haywired!!

@ 9:37 PM

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