Sunday, September 25, 2005

ok.. tmr will be a long day for me. i will be staying till 7.30pm cos im going for the chem time trial. i did some maths and chem today. hmm.. a week more to promos. crapp.

i wish i have a brain of a genius now. then i dun have to study and i still get straight As. it beats studying like hell and still get Fs. ya i know, im not the only one praying for that to happen. but my brains are hallow, they dun absorbed anything. i feel stupid sometimes.

i shall get pillows to munch during lessons tmr. at least it will keep me awake.

make me smart

@ 9:15 PM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

god. im super tired, guess im going to sleep anytime soon. i realised i still got a lot of work to do. promos will be here real soon. arghh.. i need to finish studying! sigh..

to people out there who is trying to keep themselves awake while studying, there is no point drinking tea or coffee. drink ginseng water instead! yes, i know some of you may hate the taste but it is for the better good, it definitely keeps you awake for a long time, really works!! haha.. i sound like some salesman. you can ask my friends, i was energetic during sch after my father force down the ginseng water down my throat in the morning. now i know the wonders of it and why is it so expensive. hahaha...

laughter. my best medicine! i had a great time laughing today. i also discover the inner child in all of us. we get a kick out for doing stupid stuffs which some others may deemed it as ridiculous. for example, fighting with our markers, trying to colour one another. it is no doubt lame but some how i rather i enjoyed it. haha. best of all parts, we gossip a lot. i guess im partly the cause for it. hahaha.. im starting to find my group of friends real interesting. each individual contributes to my laughter everyday. we laugh most of time, amusing each other every minute. no wonder we formed the Happy Club. :) let our powers combine.

@ 10:10 PM

Sunday, September 18, 2005

my mom is nagging. her voice has been ringing in my ear the whole day. so annoying.

exams exams exams... the atmosphere is crazy now you know. every step you take, you can see students staring intently at their books. i feel so stressed at just by looking at them. luckily, im starting to do some work but still not a lot. hmm lets see... there is only 2 more weeks to promos. freaky! and im not even half way through my studies. arghh.. we still have to rush our wr.

i pray

@ 9:10 PM

Monday, September 12, 2005

there is file checking tmr so i gotta log the 2 files to sch. arghh.. it freaking heavy. poor me, i will suffer tmr.

stupid.. im always creating trouble for myself.

@ 10:15 PM

Sunday, September 11, 2005

slack-ed

i did absolutely nothing today. i went to view my aunt's new flats in the morning. the new flats are getting smaller these days. stayed there and rotted all the way till dinner time. sigh.. feeling a little guilty now. haha.. guess i shall make it up some time later.[as if]

ok then on sat, went out with pearlly and vanessa. oh goss.. why am i still out? so anyway, had fun catching up with them. later we went to shawn's church for this musical.

sheesh la.. i suppose to be mugging like the rest but im still slacking really hard. someone whack me real hard! got to study!!

oh ya.. my insomia is back. i cant have a proper sleep these days. i kept on waking up in the middle of the night. having insomia is the worst feeling. it feels as though you are a living-dead. seriously.

i think i will be a handicap in sch tmr. i dunno what happened to my legs, they hurt so badly. i cant even walk properly now. sheesh..

@ 9:33 PM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

right.. i will be going for the chem time trial tmr. hopefully it will be beneficial. still thinking whether i should go for the sat one though. managed to read through some of my notes. i hope i will be able to remember most of it. sigh... found out that in order to get an E for chem, i need to score 64/110 and 72/110 for a D. like wth??!! it seems so far-fletched. having to score 40/110 is already a difficult task la. hmm.. im starting to feel really worried.

left 3 and a half weeks to promos. im so dead! my studies are still dangling. crappp..

@ 10:37 PM

Monday, September 05, 2005

firstly, im mentally exhausted. chem is killing me! after cracking my head to solve the holiday assignments, i bet i will still get like 80% of the questions wrong. arghhhh... im fed up! how??? i cant freaking do it!! then how am i suppose to take the exams like that?! i feel like killing myself, really.

secondly, yet another disturbing news. i cant believe how bloodly moronic i am. i feel like an idiot right now. i wish i can dig a hole and throw myself into it! ahhh... what was i thinking then, really. i cant believe ive done that without thinking. its only after what they told me then i realised my actions. sheesh.. so disgraceful. now people might think im a real bitch. crap.. life has not been pleasent for the past few days.

for christ sake, you are not hot whatsoever, i will never never neeevvveerrr have a crush on you!! damn it!

im konked out!

@ 10:12 PM

Saturday, September 03, 2005

i learnt about some disturbing news last night. it left me a little furious but at the same time really amused. life is full of deceit but i can handle it.

i believe

@ 5:27 PM

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